Moving to a new place is often an emotional experience. There's sadness about who and what you're leaving behind. There's some apprehension as to how things will work out: will you be able to make good friends? What will your lifestyle be like? etc. And then, there's hope. Hope that you can do better this time with the clean slate you've been offered. Hope that you won't repeat your past mistakes (and not make whole new ones either!).
It was with the enthusiasm, brashness and optimism of youth that I went to the US and returned much mellowed, much more sober, much more a realist. This includes the time I moved to a single bedroom apartment there from the 3-bedroom I shared with many guys: I set up my new place so well you wouldn't believe it was I who did it. I put up photos and even art on the walls. I equipped my kitchen with everything from toaster, blender type stuff to chappathi-making equipment. I kept the place clean, tidy and orderly. I had cable tv and high speed internet. I had some decent furniture. I bought a car (a Honda Accord, at that!). I think overall I spent a small fortune, in terms of money, time and love. And then my health problems returned to plague me, and I suddenly had to leave, dropping everything, and I mean everything. I sold the car and gave away (or threw away) everything else. It was heartbreaking.
So you will understand when I tell you how apprehensive I am about moving this time. I have just joined a job in Bangalore, and am on the apartment hunt again. When I move in completely, what will happen? Will my life be as rich and enjoyable as it was at IITM? Or will it be "move in, move out" all over again, for whatever reason?
I take a deep breath. I plunge, and I hope. I pray. I dream. I dare.
Cheers,
Prashanth.
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I have been a silent lurker around here for quite some time, came from tgfi's space. Totally love ur writings.
Wish you the best with this moving, and bangalore is awesome (just some patience with the traffic and one-ways reqd)
Another very loooongtime silent lurker. I had to come out and make a comment. You are a very smart, enterprising and engaging guy. Don't despair. You have a great attitude. I wish you all the best in your new job in Bangalore. Even if it doesn't work out its ok. It will definitely be not because of you. Hope you make lots of friends and I wish you the very best of the best.
Ramesh
Good luck with the new place! I hope everything goes well for you :)
*looks astounded*
Ferret, I have to confess that I too "lurked" around your blog in the past :). Life has been way too weird over the past 12-18 months for me to do any blog-hopping, though.
Ramesh, thank you for your wishes, and I do have faith.
River, am real surprised to see you here again!! Surprised, but pleased :). Peace favor your sword.
Hello Prashant...Long time!
Good luck with a new life at Bangalore! My affections are with you in everything you do!
I'm super excited about your new job but a little nervous for you, especially because I started reading your blog around the time u wrote about your health. It felt like hearing from a very own sibling , so I guess that partly explains my nervousness right now!
But again, I'm sure you can do well and have a gorgeous future ahead! Wish u the best and swim away!
sushama
So you now have a good experience with the undeniable impermanence of things.
Take a deep breath, delve into the topic, ruminate, wonder about the meaning of life and become a philosopher. Or, get busy, make the most of it while it lasts, take life as it comes by, and become a pragmatist.
Which one is your cuppa tea, SP?
Thank you Sushama :)
And... I'm both a pragmatist and a philosopher. I'm nothing in between.
and you live...;)
Happy New Year ...
Vc
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